Merry Christmas

When I think about Christmases past I am sat at home this evening and for the first time in over 20 years I am alone on Christmas Eve 🎄 I blame no-one but myself for this because in the beginning of 2020 Kath and I got engaged and by March I had allowed other people and distractions to come into my life and Kath left me and yes it left me feeling depressed and worried about the future but I also know that things will always work out for the better.

New loves, new beginnings, new challenges in every aspect of life beset us all especially this year which has been a really difficult year. I would like to take this opportunity to wish each and every one of you a Merry Christmas, Happy holidays and a Happy and Blessed New Year and may all of your hopes, dreams and aspirations be fulfilled.

Published by paulguisbournehiltonalifeworthgiving

I am a 56 years old male living for the last 5 years in Pembrokeshire West Wales in the UK. I have entitled this blog along with my Facebook page as A Life worth giving because when I was growing up I was taught that the only way to get on in life was to be selfish, not even sharing sweets, books, pens or anything. I moved into adulthood with very much the same view of life and entered in my teens a life of alcohol dependency, another very selfish trait, my drinking consumed every waking moment and I saw alcohol as both my best friend and worst enemy, the only real positive was that it never let me down. Life changed for me in 1997 in the month of April when I stopped drinking and started to awaken my feelings, I found that I actually enjoyed life, enjoyed feeling although it was hard and left me feeling vulnerable yet today I am at my happiest, in a very loving relationship and life is good. A life worth giving is about my journey through life but also about being selfless and serving others willingly and with an attitude of gratitude.

7 thoughts on “Merry Christmas

  1. Oh Paul… please always remember that you are never truly alone.
    It’s a difficult time of year to be ‘alone’.
    I sometimes struggle with Christmas and New Year because even though I have my children, they are older now and not as ‘needy’ of Mom… so essentially, I am also very much alone. And yet… I know I am not.
    I also comfort myself with thoughts of others, and dreams of travelling to meet everyone and it brings me strange happiness 🙂

    Thinking of you, my friend. Hoping your Christmas was good… and hoping even more that the New Year will bring you at least 100 more reasons to smile 😉

    Lots of love to you.

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  2. Hi Meg,
    I have to admit that I really enjoyed Christmas although it was very different as it was for everyone 😀.
    I didn’t really feel lonely but somewhat disappointed in myself, this time last year Kath and I were planning our engagement dinner for New year’s day and 3 months later we ended our relationship, I think since then I have lacked purpose and direction and with Covid 19 being around us I have also felt trapped somewhere that I don’t really want to be but I’m still alive.😀❤
    Whilst I breathe I hope and look forward to 2021 with a sense of peace and happiness 😊.
    Thank you my friend for being the wonderful person that you are and for your selflessness and love of others ❤
    I hope that you and your family have a wonderful and Blessed New Year and that you are all kept safe and well 🙏❤

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    1. Hi Meg,
      I know it feels a long time since we last messaged, I’m doing OK I think, dipped quite badly after Christmas and have had a lot of family problems so haven’t even thought about doing a blog post or anything.
      I have also been thinking of you and your family and I hope that you are all safe and well ❤🙂

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      1. Hi Meg,
        Thank you for your kind words and thoughts, having spoken with my Dr’s
        I am back on antidepressants and they seem to be doing their job and I’m starting to improve and get my motivation back
        Can’t wait to do some ironing it’s a really good benchmark for me 😅❤
        Have a wonderful Valentines day sending love and hugs ❤🙏

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